this job is killing me.
and yet i know i’ll never quit. never really put my foot down and refuse to basically be whored out for minimum wage. never make them stand up and agree that my job is a joke. even though i lose sleep over it, i stress about it, i eat less because of it, i’ve started getting migranes.
hell i dream about going into work to a never ending pile of things i can never get done.
and they’ll never fire me because i literally am the best person they have working there.
so what, i’m a suck up and i actually do my job.
where has that actually gotten me.
a raise? no
a promotion? no
being well liked by my co workers? no.
what’s the point of all the effort i put into this job?
is it pathetic that i’m staying at this job mainly for one of my managers whom i’m not going to lie, i have a crush on.
seriously, everyone else in the building could go suck it but i’d feel generally horrible if i dissapointed him, and i’d miss him.
pathetic. pathetic pathetic.
i am doing nothing with my life.
i’m 22, and i’m going absolutely nowhere.